Day 116: Cold, Beautiful Day

Just looking out the window, it appears to be a perfect day out there.  Stepping outside, however, will quickly prove that observation to be very incorrect!  It is so cold out there but fortunately, the crazy wind finally died down.  When I was young, I loved the cold and hated the heat and now, I am exactly the opposite.  I just want to be warm.  It’s strange how much certain things about you can change and usually, it happens so gradually that you just don’t even pay any attention to the changes.  Then, one morning you wake up and it seems as though everything has changed.  Your likes have become dislikes and your dislikes are now likes.  Most of the time it’s small things like a certain type of food or drink or a color…nothing life altering.  Then there are things that will actually force you to change your life…falling in or out of love, making a big career change, or discovering your destiny or that what you thought was your destiny was just a whim.  We have to be open to these changes because they are like a map that we can follow to find our true self.  Maybe if I were younger and unencumbered, my dislike of the cold weather would send me off to a tropical island or Greece rather than just make me buy heavier and heavier coats each year.  When my first marriage became too dangerous for me to remain in it, I fled it even though I still thought I loved my ex-husband.  It took me years to realize that love had nothing to do with that marriage.  So, that obviously was a change for the better.  It didn’t stop me from making a few more relationship mistakes but it did teach me what I definitely did not want and that I was always free to walk away from an abusive relationship or situation.  As we age, we have to learn to embrace the changes even when we aren’t 100% certain what they could mean.  I have become more of a “go with the flow” person.  I still am not a huge fan of some changes, obviously, but I  can deal with them better than I used to.  I’ve also gotten better at just waiting to see how they’ll affect my life before deciding to hate them just because they are changes.  I’m still a fan of the status quo but some of the changes that have happened in my life over the last year have really led me in a better direction.  I am happy with where I am right now emotionally and creatively.  Change is good for us…it keeps us on our toes.  And I’m definitely on my toes right now and it feels pretty good.


About Donna Heilman

I am a writer that lives in the Dallas-Ft. Worth Metroplex with my husband, 2 dogs, and 10 cats. I am currently working on my novel, Rapture, as well as writing poetry and some short non-fiction. I am honestly writing this blog to feel more connected with other creative people.
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