Day 113: Beautiful Day

It is a beautiful day with lots of sunshine and a bit warmer temperatures.  I went out to feed my stray and feral critters and I just wanted to stay out there even though it was still a bit chilly.  I have so much to do today and I actually overslept…by quite a bit but I don’t feel too badly about it except for the fact that I’ve gotten a really late start on everything I want to accomplish today.    I needed that extra sleep, I guess, so I won’t beat myself up for it.  And I’m still going to make sure that I get everything done that I planned to do.  Sometimes you just have to listen to your body and let it get what it needs and I haven’t really been doing that as much as I should and that’s really not good for me.  As creative types, we have to take care of ourselves because our brains are our tools and if we don’t take care of our body’s needs, we lose our sharpness and ability to really think as deeply as we need to be able to in order to be able to do our magical creative thing.  I need to do more of that.  I work too much, stay up too late, eat poorly, etc…, and I know that zaps me in general as well as my potential as a writer.  I also distract myself with things that in no way helpful.  I just turn my brain off and zone out.  I am trying to stop it…at least the majority of it.  We all need that zone out time occasionally but it’s become a habit and that’s not good for me.  I have too many things that I want to do and I’m allowing myself to hide behind other things that prevent me from accomplishing them.  It’s strange how our minds work.  I want these things so badly yet I seem to be putting a wall up between them and myself.  I’m sure that a psychiatrist would say that I have a fear of acquiring what I want and/or of being successful but I really don’t have years to spend in psychotherapy figuring out why.  So I have to fix this myself…now.  And, after a good, long night’s sleep, I’m ready to start tackling it today!        


About Donna Heilman

I am a writer that lives in the Dallas-Ft. Worth Metroplex with my husband, 2 dogs, and 10 cats. I am currently working on my novel, Rapture, as well as writing poetry and some short non-fiction. I am honestly writing this blog to feel more connected with other creative people.
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