Day 105: Did I Choose Writing Or Did It Choose Me?

I honestly cannot remember a time in my life that I didn’t want to be a writer.  I began reading when I was 5 so I think that it all springs from that.  I had a very active imagination as a child and as soon as I could compose sentences more complex than “the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog” I began to write poems and stories.  It helped that I had no artistic talent other than that, I suppose.  Having an extremely musically talented dad and brother, I just knew that I had to have that gene but sadly I didn’t.  They both could pick up any instrument and within a very short time, they’d be playing it like a professional.  I took piano and guitar lessons and failed miserably at both.  My piano teacher told my parents that they were just wasting their money.  I would try to draw and paint over the years and that didn’t go any better than my musical endeavors.  So I don’t know if I truly wanted to be a writer or if I chose it by default.  Either way, it really doesn’t matter because I am a good writer with a vivid imagination and I love writing.  I can paint with words so my poetry and prose are my canvases.  I also don’t know if we are born with certain creative abilities or not but I think that we definitely are influenced by our experiences and surroundings when we are very young.  It doesn’t matter if being a writer was my destiny from the second that I was conceived or not because I have made it my destiny.  I think that my desire to be a writer is much more important than being destined to be one anyway.  I have worked hard at being a good writer and I’m proud of that.  I also have an overwhelming desire to write and that is what keeps me writing even when the words and ideas aren’t flowing…it’s why I keep sitting down in front of my laptop and scribbling notes and ideas down on scraps of paper.  I have a need to create and writing is my outlet.  So I don’t really have an answer to the who chose whom question but I’m glad that it worked out the way that it did.          

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