Day 61: Life As I Know It

I have a feeling that life is about to change for me after tomorrow.  At 12:00pm, I am having a Nuclear Lexiscan Stress Test because my artery that causes what they call the “widow maker” heart attack is very, very clogged.  Depending on what they find tomorrow, I could be having angioplasty and getting a stent put in sooner rather than later.  I’d be put on 2 blood thinners…1 for 6 months and 1 for life.  I’ll be advised to change my lifestyle…diet, exercise, etc…which I already know that I need to do.  That’s 1 of the biggest problems when working in an office…spending 90% of my 9 – 10 hour day in front of the computer.  And when I go home, I sit in front of my laptop.  Writing is pretty sedentary and that’s compounded by the fact that I’m having to squeeze it into a few evening hours and weekends between work, husband, home, critters, other responsibilities, etc….  Do you know what the sad thing is?  I have a room full of exercise equipment…treadmill, stationary weight machine, some small free weights, bands, some Pilates stuff like the ball, etc…, so I have absolutely no excuse for not exercising except that I head straight for my Writing Haven rather than my exercise room because I love writing and hate exercising.  I used to be extremely active…mostly basketball, which I was damned good at, softball, volleyball, etc….  My sports days were sidelined by rheumatoid arthritis and walking on a treadmill is pretty boring when compared to playing sports.  I was never small but as I’ve aged, my weight has started to really creep up and I have totally let it.  I’m a Type 1 diabetic so I know that I need to keep my weight under control but being on 2 types of insulin makes that very difficult.  Losing weight while on insulin is tough but other people do it.  I guess that I will too now.  I don’t really have a choice.  It’s funny what having a possible “widow making” heart attack looming in your future can do for your motivation and mindset.  I suppose that I can use a voice recorder to “write” while exercising.  Or use writing time to motivate me…for every minute I exercise, I get to write for that length of time as well.  Oh, there will be resistance and bargaining but I’ll have to shut that down.  My diet will have to become much healthier.  Looking at me you’d never guess that I am the pickiest eater on the planet.  I have a rather limited list of foods I like.  I don’t like seafood except for cod but only if it’s fried.  I hate diet drinks and flavored waters.  The texture of food is a big deal for me…the food could be the best whatever of it’s kind and taste amazing but if the texture is wrong, I won’t eat it.  I like fruit but I like fast food more.  I don’t like vegetable soups or stews.  See where all that’s going?  It will be a MAJOR lifestyle shift for me to go healthy.  My husband eats about 90% healthy but it’s all stuff that I won’t eat.  He can and has modified my less than healthy meals so that they are much healthier and he really is an excellent cook, so I know it’s possible.  But, as I wrote the other day…I DO NOT LIKE CHANGE!  But, this is my life so I’m going to have to make and accept these changes and learn to work around them as far as finding time to write is concerned.  That is 1 thing that I will not give up so I have to get healthy and stay that way.

Take care of your body.  It’s the only place that you have to live.” ~ Jim Rohn          


About Donna Heilman

I am a writer that lives in the Dallas-Ft. Worth Metroplex with my husband, 2 dogs, and 10 cats. I am currently working on my novel, Rapture, as well as writing poetry and some short non-fiction. I am honestly writing this blog to feel more connected with other creative people.
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2 Responses to Day 61: Life As I Know It

  1. Maggie says:

    Donna, I understand how receiving that kind of news can be stressful. Hubby and I have started on a new healthier regime and we are now walking every morning and we have made some substantial changes in our diet. It’s easier than I thought it would be. It has reminded me that I actually like cooking if I can do it at my own pace. I hope all goes well tomorrow and that you find the path that works for you as far as exercise and diet. I will say a special prayer for you. Much love.

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    • I hope all goes well for you. My husband had stints put in about 10 years ago. He is also diabetic. I can’t convince him to change his diet and I refuse to raise another spouse. Good for you for deciding to try your best to be healthy.
      Gentle hugs,

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