Day 30: Begin Today

Today.  Today is the most important day of your life.  This is the point where you can decide to do, to be anything you want.  What will you choose for yourself?  Will you continue on as you always have, ignoring your dreams and desires?  Will you make the changes that you’ve been longing to make?  Will you make a decision that will change your life?  Every single day when you wake up, you can make a choice that will change your life, but will you be brave enough to do it?  Making changes is scary especially when they might actually change your entire life.  I am in the midst of making changes in my life and I’m not doing a very good job of implementing them…well, 1 of them.  Deciding to make a change and actually making the change are 2 separate and distinct things.  Once we actually make the change, our lives will be different in ways that we might not be able to comprehend so we hesitate, we think, we worry, we struggle with it, we embrace it, we reject it, we re-think it, we step back from it, and then we finally make the change.  At first, we might struggle with the difference the change brings but each day, it becomes a bit easier.  At least that’s what they tell us.  That has actually proven to be true with 1 of the changes…writing this blog.  When I decided to accept the 365-day blogging challenge, I didn’t think that there was any way that I could possibly be able to do it but I wanted to try.  At first, I struggled to come up with things to write about but over the last 30 days, it’s actually become easier because 99% of the time I am addressing my own concerns, aspirations, failings, etc…, so all of the conversations that I have with myself in my head are now being played out in this blog.  It’s actually been very helpful and a bit cathartic.  It’s helpful because I now know that I’m not the only 1 that has the doubts, feelings, failures, struggles, etc….  Writing is a solitary thing when you’re actually doing it but we do have a community, a tribe out there and this just reiterates that.  My choice that I’m most concerned about is the 1 that is most important to me.  I have been struggling to actually make the choice to rededicate myself to my writing…to make the time for it.  To finish my novel.  I’m struggling because, as I’ve said before when I get home from work, I just want to relax and shake the day off of me.  I don’t want to think anymore.  But I have to do this if I’m going to make my dream come true.  So, the choice that I’m making right now is to write every day even if it’s just 1 sentence.  I will have to hold myself accountable and I guess that I will also use this blog to occasionally announce my triumphs as well as my failures.  It will keep me honest…with myself and my tribe.  Without accountability and honesty, it’s much too easy to just slowly back away from the changes we’ve made.  I don’t want to do that…I’m not going to do that.  This is a choice that I’m not going to back away from again.  So what choices are you struggling to make?  You have the ability to decide whether a choice is in your best interest or not.  Just listen to what your Inner Wise Self tells you. (the Inner Wise Self is a SARK concept)  Trust in it.  Make your choices because no one else can do it for you.  Only you know what is right for you and what your dreams are.  Make the choice…you know that you want to.  It could change your life forever. 

“Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson    


About Donna Heilman

I am a writer that lives in the Dallas-Ft. Worth Metroplex with my husband, 2 dogs, and 10 cats. I am currently working on my novel, Rapture, as well as writing poetry and some short non-fiction. I am honestly writing this blog to feel more connected with other creative people.
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1 Response to Day 30: Begin Today

  1. Maggie says:

    NaNoWriMo has me writing every day. Even if I do not make it to 50,000 words, I am writing every day. Good luck to you, Donna!


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